Every time I have a discussion with my sister regarding the emphasis I place on maintaining her "Personality Index", I feel like I am just blathering on for minutes at a time and that no matter what I do say I can't put things into terms that would actually convey what I am thinking.
My personal view is that the higher elements of the system we call our brain...the persona, the soul, whatever you want to call it, function as the guidance system that controls all the functions of your body (including your chemical mind).
We build concepts from memory elements of things we have encountered and when we imagine something, we piece it together from elements of sensory memory (mostly visual), and cobble the shape together. In short our interpretation systems are derived entirely as a compare/ contrast/ rationalize series of Boolean decisions resulting in a series of possible outcomes, which we eventually choose the ones that most closely match who we decide to be.
The deductions occur faster than we can speculate or notice, in many ways because our brain seeks out to autonimise every function it can, and as we develop we build reactions to given criteria and log them away as reflexes. These reflexes develop when we are so young that it is perceived to be an absolute and uncontrollable reaction, and thus people can not be blamed for their reactions.
This is a statement I find hard to disagree with, yet also know to be patently false on myriads of levels.
The bottom line though, is that our emotions are a paired function between the concept of an emotion, and the chemical response our body creates to coincide with the sensation. By decoupling the two in theory, it becomes possible to force an error in this system and create the chemical reaction by dwelling on the concept of a specific emotion. One of the most interesting facets of our emotions is how quickly our body reacts to these syndromes, and the physical symptoms that coincide with them.
Assuming you are even humoring this idea past this point, there are three fundamental principles I live by.
1. Being able to conceptualize and trace the semi-involuntary functions of the higher mind separates my understanding of my existence as a user of the body I inhabit, and the substantial difference between my software's self preservation parameters, and the literal act of exerting control.
2. The level of culpability I need to assume for my reactions. My emotions evolved and show in tune with my personality...the literal line in the sand is the viewpoint that there are certain reactions I find unacceptable despite the feeling of appropriateness. I react to people based entirely on who I choose to be, and the preservation of my personality index - the morals, values, priorities and operating procedures I put together to shape the logic of my navigation process through life. This means I no longer accept the excuse from myself that my emotions excuse behavior, and this also means that when I embrace a sensation I am doing so fully aware of the ramifications of my behavior and know when I am reacting and why. There are so many minute influences person to person that constitute a bombardment against the ego/psyche/navigational pretext that people lose ability to grasp when someone is actually attacking their will and when it is incidental. People fall into despair because they become overwhelmed by a lack of empathy or consideration, which is unfortunately the human way of functioning.
3. I am aware of both perspectives to live by; before becoming aware of my personal attunement to my mind, and after. Bearing that in mind, it is hard for me to condemn anyone for not developing a perception, because people are only as aware as their own development has granted them. I can't hold someone at fault for not knowing or understanding, and it is functionally impossible for anyone to tell someone else a truth. The person has to be presented a concept, understand and want to perceive the concept, and analyze it to a point of adopting it as logical, and there is nothing on the planet that can force or change that process.
The concept of God came clearer to me a while ago when I was reflecting on the process we use to generate a model of anything with a physical presence we hadn't encountered. Since we have to borrow from previously encountered memories to build an understanding and image of a concept, "God" would be the collection of elements in the universe that we sense but only by their direct absence in tangible reality.
The act of naming, quantifying and assembling ideas to communicate is the highest acknowledgement we can give to anything. To recognize something, someone, somewhere, or some event as worthy of forcing into terms is the most power we as higher beings can grant something, and since we do this to our reality, the elements we are unable to recognize are therefore valued by their grandeur and absence.
Consequently, the act of valuing is has the side effect or reducing something to its sum of parts and making it mundane.
What makes a human being MORE than just matter and random occurance, binary logical evolution and to me, is the value we place on inherent contradictions to our self preservation protocols. Concepts like non-communal generosity, mercy, and self sacrifice to someone not of our genetic line are the functional discrepancies that we act on (rarely), but potentially without respect for the instincts that govern ourselves, and make us more than whatever structure we may have evolved from. It is in this facet that I believe there is something greater than what we are now, whether it is an evolved being that long since left humanity behind, or something else. The capacity for something to exist makes it possible for multiple variances.
I live my life trying to pursue knowledge in all things, daunting or not. I live my life with respect to people without the perspective to know better, and I do so with a sincere attempt to not judge them for what I may perceive as an ignorance. I live my life knowing that it is possible I am wrong, deluded and stuck with my head so far up my own ass as to my the reality of things, but lastly, I life my life to the best extent of who I can be given my understanding of the world, and to always challenge that notion with the intent of bettering myself through it. If any of you have made it this far, thanks for the time.